I feel so lost when it comes to knowing that I'm supposed to do with my life! Although I love my job, and the company I work for.... I hate working while I have a baby who is growing up so fast, and I don't have the time with her that I had always dreamed I would have with my children.
This week especially though, has been difficult. Sophie has gone from having two consistant babysitters, to only one. But, Sophie's only babysitter now, has broken her foot, and has been advised to take it easy for 4 weeks. So, now... I'm struggling to find babysitters for FOUR WEEKS. Poor Sophie has been to 4 different people's homes in the past week and a half. Most of whom she's only met a couple of times. Thankfully, Sophie is very easy-going and adaptable, but still... I just don't think it's right!
I started off my work year with 1 month paid vacation, and I'm down to 9 days left! Forget having a family vacation this year, because I need to save these days for the times when Sophie is sick, or doesn't have a babysitter. I'm burnt out and exhausted and I just don't want to do this anymore! I don't want to be a full-time working mother. I just want to be a full-time mother. If I could do that, then I wouldn't need to rely on anyone else to watch my kid every day. Just finding someone to watch Sophie is exhausting in itself. I can't afford day care ($1,200 every month in this area). So... all I can do is rely on other people to watch Sophie, and this drives me crazy!
What can I do? How can I be a stay at home mom? Please pray for me... because this my mind is struggling with that to do! Thank you!
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